In September of 2013 I decided I was ready to take my long awaited leap into surrogacy. William and I had long since decided that we were done having kids unless some huge life altering thing changed our minds. Nathan has always been our one and only child and we have no intentions of more.
I had juggled the idea of carrying for someone else since the ripe age of 13. Well shortly after applying to be a surrogate, I jumped right into getting my medical records from my pregnancy with Nathan, filling out TONS of forms, psych evaluation questionaires. A couple weeks after beginning my journey I flew to San Antonio to meet some potential parents or IP's (intended parents). I immediately fell in love. I wanted so badly to carry a baby for them. But they wanted TWO! I was over the moon. We connected in so many ways. Well their embryo transfer left them with ALL girls, when they wanted hypothetical twin boys. The holidays passed while we all got ready for a Mid March 2014 transfer. After tons of evaluations, tests, self injected hormones, and meds. It was transfer day!
I was so nervous laying on that table alone but in my heart I knew it was worth it. As the days went by leading up to my HCG beta test, I got 1 negative home test after the other. On beta day I knew not to have my hopes too high. Well when the results were finally in I was let down but ready to get my body back on track to try again.
When I heard I would be transferring again in May I just couldnt wait! This time when transfer day arrived I was surrounded by my husband, my wonderful coordinator, and my IPs! When I left the clinic I had such a good feeling! 4 days later I started getting Faint positives on my home tests. My first HCG test was an awesome number! 3 days later my number had jumped from 275 to 1002! We were definitely pregnant! I walked on egg shells but was so excited for the potential baby that I was helping bring into this world.
In surrogacy and IVF it feels like time goes so fast but stands still all the same. Well at 5 wks 4 days(Friday June 6, 2014) I packed my family up and we drove to San Antonio for my first ultrasound before heading to my brothers graduation! I was told not to be upset if we didnt see a heart beat because I was still so newly pregnant. Well we saw 1 perfect baby with a strong visible heart beat(sadly we couldnt hear it yet). My IPs were over the moon! The whole way to my brothers graduation my son held the ultrasound picture and kept saying it was his baby!
Well 2 days later(Sunday) trouble struck. I started to have major complications(I won't go into the gory details). The next morning(Monday) I had an ultrasound where I found that I had some kind of blood clots that may or may not affect the baby. Well on Friday (June 13, 2014) night I spent 8 hours in the Emergency Room. I had a miscarriage and it was for unknown reasons!
My IPs were devestated! Well as time went by my IPs decided that they wanted to move on with someoene else around mid July. I was hreatbroken. My agency was now on the search for new parents that would be just right for me. After being sent several profiles, the 3rd profile I received was PERFECT! I was in love. After meeting them they loved me to. I was so happy to finally be moving forward again.
Well tragedy struck again Today when I found out their doctor told them I would not be a suitable match due to my miscarriage.
I know that God has a wonderful plan for me and I will not give up on my want to help someone else grow their family!
